Guess who's back!

I'm back people and do we have a bunch of catching up to do! Let's start with an update of my surgery for the biopsy, we pathology came back and it was stage 1 DCIS ER + cancer. That means i have breast cancer and its estrogen receptive positive. I had to have a double mastectomy in November of 2013. I had a reconstruction done January 11 2014. While i was getting ready for the reconstruction i found out i was pregnant again! We went through with the surgery as my skin wasn't tolerating the expander's any longer. We monitored the baby and kept it a secret for 3 months. Once we knew that our sea turtle was OK we told everyone, we were also informed that with my type of cancer i would need a hysterectomy, complete nothing left behind. As the months went on we monitored baby and ended up hospitalized for hyperemesis which is bad morning sickness. In April of that year munchkin was back home with his dad and at the time i was angry but we eventually talked and got everything out in the open and let me tell you the things we know now makes all 4 of his parents (me and my hubby along with his dad and stepmother) the best parents ever! We get along very well now and i couldn't ask for better co parents. While all this has gone on munchkin has been able to come stay the weekend with us and hang out when he wants. We also have grown to love his sister's M and I as if they were our own. They are such sweet and caring girls! We went for a gender ultrasound and found out our final baby was a girl! I was over the moon with excitement. She was due September 11 but due to my cancer we couldn't risk my body going into any firm of labor so we scheduled a cesarean section for August 21. Everything went great and baby girl was born with no issues and munchkin came up to meet her thank to his step mom. I had a good recovery nothing like the ones prior this one was surprisingly easy, maybe it was because my best friend came down to help me for a few days! She drove from Oklahoma to see me and sea turtle.She id have a small set back in December when she was hospitalized for RSV. We spent 4 days in the hospital and were discharged on antibiotics and breathing treatments. 2015 started out uneventful until we received a call from Make A Wish New Mexico that ladybug had been nominated for a wish! we went and met with the people and she was granted her wish to go to Disneyland Resort!! We waited or school to be out for summer before going and boy did we have fun, we rode the rides, went to the beach, we spent a week at a beautiful hotel. We met Anna, Elsa, and Olaf from Frozen, we ate at a restaurant in the hotel where we met Minnie, Mickey, Donald, Stitch, and Goofy!!We've celebrated birthdays and anniversaries, we had sea turtles first birthday and first Christmas and she had a blast!! Christmas was fun as we had all 5 kids for part of the day. All the kids made out like bandits. We just recently attended an awards ceremony for the where he received an award for a record week at his store. unfortunately not even two days after the ceremony they let him go from his job. His assistant was doing some things she wasn't supposed to do and she blamed hunny when she got caught. We have been searching for work since then. Well not in the middle of February and Zittomans birthday is Saturday and he will be 8 can you believe that!!! His party is Sunday and its a Star Wars theme and we cant wait!! Ladybug starts her new CBD oil for her seizures and I'm excited for the results i hope we receive. Amidst a world of chaos we keep our heads up, I'm hoping to be blogging a lot more now (here's hoping everyday) Please send prayers, positive energy and thoughts my way as I applied for a job i really want. This is our family update and I'll be in touch again soon.

Always smiling,
The outnumbered stay at home mom

Where has the time gone?

Below are  My beautiful nieces for prom!   

Below is my niece that graduated high school this year!

Below is munchkin at his baseball game, he's so good!!

Well my lovelies since the last time we spoke a lot has happened and I'm here to give you the possibly long update!!  So the last few weeks of February (yes it's been that long) were misty uneventful. March was a crazy month, my niece, nephew, and little brother had their birthdays. Yes one right after another. We had parties for the kids and cake for my little big brother. We then found out we had to move. Ugh I cannot stand moving, but with my teeth clenched and temper tantrum in check we did. We found a nicer house with more room inside and out. I just wish our landlord wasn't such a butthole but that's another post! In April we really didn't have anything eventful just a few birthdays and fun filled days of softball and surprisingly some snow. Yes I said snow, Mother Nature wasn't aware that it was spring an wanted snow! May has been very eventful. The first week of May presented a very worry some problem. I found a mass in my right breast. I went to the doctor and they sent me for a breast ultrasound. That is just like having an ultrasound on your baby belly except its on your boob.  When my doctor got the results he wanted me to have a biopsy and sent me to a surgeon. At my consultation with the surgeon I was then sent for a mammogram. When I went for that it wasn't as bad as I thought. I had my boob squished in 6 different ways. Well the mammogram showed what looks like a jelly fish inside my right breast. I will have it removed and they will send it to pathology to tell me if its cancer or not. I'm defiantly scared but I have family rallying around me and friends that have inspired me. I have a friend we'll call her E. Well E is going in for her Angelina Jolie surgery because she has an 85% chance of having breast cancer. She is BRACA positive, and has watched her very own mother beat cancer. I am very inspired by her decision and how well she has this all planned out. E you amaze me!!! Next is my Scentsy director she's going to be called S.  S has gone through and beaten breast cancer 3 times, yes 3 times!! Amazing right? Well I thought so to, she has told me what each test was going to feel and look like. She has understood when I just couldn't get out of bed because I was mad they even found anything! S thanks for being there for me and helping me your a God send! Now I'm just waiting on insurance junk before I have my procedure then it's time to remove the jelly fish! After finding all of this and having a bad month I have to say my month is nothing compare to my older sister J. Her fiancé passed away this month and its been very hard few days for her so keep her and his family in your prayers and thoughts please. For the last 3 nights I've been up helping the pizza guy clean his store so that its clean when his boss comes down. I've gone on little to no sleep, but I'm managing to stay up. Today our very first car that was bought as a married couple went kaput and I found out that we needed a new car. So we had to go and look at cars. I hate car shopping, I don't like salesman and being pushed into a payment you cannot afford. So we went to a place that's owned by the softball director and found a vehicle that we want so Friday we will attempt to get it so we have a decent vehicle. After my long day I watched my niece play softball and then came home and made dinner, Cajun chicken Alfredo with rigatoni pasta. Now I sit watching PBS in the dark while the kids sleep. Tomorrow is the last day of school and summer vacation is coming I get to watch my niece and nephew when sissy and pickle are working. Found out today that munchkin has 1 a, 2 b, 1 c, and 1 d on his report card! Isn't that fantastic!!!! He's improved so much and I'm so proud of my son!!  The month of May is filled with new beginnings and tragic endings. To all who graduated congrats you did it, to those who've lost my heart breaks for you, and to those who've welcomed new family members congrats to you! Now this mommy is off to raid the fridge and then hit the hay it's going to be a long day tomorrow!!! Until then my friends.

For Clover a Dravet child who needs prayers right now due to massive brain damage and swelling from a seizure!

Always smiling ;)

Outnumbered Mom 

 

Our late blizzard!

First haircut for frogy

Top and bottom are for auntie J!

My beautiful flowers from a special friend!

Why does this still hurt after so long?

For the last few days I've noticed that my friends list is filled with so many of my friends and family facing a loss of a loved one. This all brings back the pain I felt twice in a year time span. In December of 2000 I faced my first loss that I can remember. My wonderful uncle P had passed away. My uncle was the funniest most fun guy you've ever met (ok I'm biased but hey). He had already had kidney transplants and was sick even if he would always tell you be was fine. He had a way with the ladies, they loved him. He once tried to hit on my sissy at our cousins wedding because he didn't realize who she was, after my mom told him it was his niece all he could do was laugh. When we got the phone call I was devastated I couldn't believe someone in my family had died. We immediately packed up and headed to Vegas to be with our family. My grandmother took it very hard because as we all know no mother should outlive their child. We spent days looking at pictures, telling stories and remembering our wonderful family member who left us all to early. When we came home all seemed to go back to as normal as possible, that is until the day I will never forget. I relive this day in my head on an almost daily basis. My next fight with death came on September 23, 2001 at 5pm. Three days before that my grandma had fallen at the doctors office and broken her femur. If you've even taken one course on the human body you know the femur is the strongest bone in your body. Well she needed surgery to fix it but her heart was very weak. They decided to do the operation and things went downhill fast. She had many code blues in recovery and was placed in ICU for observation. Well then things started to look up and she was sitting up talking and telling the nurses about her grand kids and how she couldn't wait to finally go home so she could relax. While my mom was making a quick dinner and I got ready to go to the hospital the phone rang, I answered it and took a message for my mom. It was the hospital they needed her to call back as soon as she could. I continued to get ready to go see my grandma and then I heard a knock at my bedroom door, it was my mom and she was crying. She said the hospital called and told her my grandma had a heart attack and they did all they could. I couldn't tell you if she even finished her sentence because I couldn't hear anything else. I screamed and yelled at my mom I refused to believe her. We met my sissy at the hospital and went into the ICU to see what had happen and say our goodbyes. My sister was crying, my mom was calm and I was irate! I yelled at the nurses and the doctors telling them that they could have done more, they didn't do their job as a medical professional by letting my grandma just leave me. My mom took me out of the ICU to cool off and I just couldn't stop shaking and crying. Not only did I lose my grandma but I lost my best friend. She was the one, that if I couldn't decide what to wear she would help me, if I needed to talk because I had a bad day she would listen. She always told me that no matter what everyone else thought of me I was a beautiful angel in her eyes. Well the next day we went to the funeral home to say our goodbyes and I was a bit more collected because I knew she just wasn't coming home no matter how hard I cried and pleaded. We held her memorial unfortunately on sissys birthday. Most of our family came down from Vegas, this was very hard for me because it just made me face it that my grandma and best friend was really gone. We cried together, laughed together and looked at pictures of my grandma when she was younger. Now I know that as a mom one day my children will face deaths be loss and I can tell you right now I don't know how I will explain it to them seeing as I can't even handle it well. I do add at the end here my condolences to all my friends and family that have lost someone special in their life I know it's hard but know that things will eventually even out and you'll be able to move through it a bit more. Now that I've opened a can of worms I'm off to listen to some music with the pizza guy and then head to bed, but before I go I ask please remember February is Congenital awareness month and the color is red so wear it proud and show support for us heart families!!! Until tomorrow my friends!

Always Smiling,
Outnumbered Mom ;)

Baby watch!!

So tonight one of my great friends "soccer mom" was admitted to labor and delivery to have her baby. Now I've been siting phone in hand waiting to hear updates! It makes me think of how it was when I had my babies. It makes me also have baby fever! I know what your thinking, I've got 4 crazy monkeys already what could possibly make me want more. Truth is I know I want more just not quite yet. We've finally move Frogy to his own bed and weaned him from nursing. This is how it always is for me once my kids are independent and don't need mommy as much I want another. Don't stress I'm not running out to have another yet, we have things to get together before that happens. It leads me to wonder how big is to big for a family and why? I think if you have love and the means to support the family then go for it! I'm jot saying I'm going to be the next "Duggars" but I do like the idea of having a large family. My grandma had 7 children and I'm sure she would have had more if she could. If she were alive today I'd sure ask her! I just think that if you want it and can do it you should. It's totally up to the family. Well I'm off to check for more updates on my baby watch and then go to bed cause I've got a busy day tomorrow!! Until then ill leave you to ponder how big do you want your family?

Always Smiling,
Outnumbered Mom ;)

Ahh smartphone and birthdays!!

So I've been away for a bit due to a stupid broken computer, but I found out that my phone had an app for that!!! So while I was away we had Ladybugs party and it was a hit!! She loved her cake, and the gifts but the best part was that Munchkin was able to attend! He was only here for about an hour but we were pleased to have him. We had such a great time that the party ended with a sleepover. My niece, nephew, and goddaughter spent the night and we had fun until the boys decide to rub ranch dip on the heater and turn it on! They are a crazy bunch but I love them. Then we cleaned the mess and started to clean rooms and clear out old clothes (I have a ton of stuff that's to big). I rearranged my room to have space for Frogys toddler bed he gets on Saturday. Then tonight we took the beautiful Ladybug to dinner and she chose Applebee's. My sweet 7 pound 8 ounce baby is now a beautiful 7 year old. Tomorrow it's time to deliver Scentsy to someone then it's time for a check up for me. Pizza guy has to work tomorrow but Sunday we get the honor of baptizing a wonderful girl we'll all her Teeny. So it's a busy next few days for us but now I can keep you all updated on what my love monkeys are up to!!

Always Smiling,
Outnumbered Mom ;)

I Have A Great Family!!

My Aunt and Uncle with me and my siblings
(Love y'all)

My sister in law with Ladybug and baby Zittoman

Old picture from 2007
My dad with his kids and grand kids
(only 1 of mine)

My little big brother

My hubby and I with his parents

My mom and sister and I 

                             Now I want to start this off by telling you how great my family really is and I mean my entire extended family.  In 2003 my sister had just given birth to her first child and the first grandchild for my family.  Shortly after I found out at 17 years old I was going to have my first child.  My parents while upset at the situation were very supportive.  My mom took me to all my doctors appointment and was there to console my when we found out that my little guy had a horrible heart condition that would require open heart surgery or may result in death.  My mom helped me pick out names for the baby and then she flew with me to California to live for the months prior to his birth.  She was there in the delivery room and was there to help me after his rushed delivery.  She held my hand when my munchkin had open heart surgery at just 48 hours old.  My dad was at home taking care of my brother so my mom could be with me.  He would call everyday and make sure everything was OK.  When I found out I was pregnant my dad would help with my morning sickness by getting juice or Gatorade for me, giving me dry cereal and crackers.  My sister was at home keeping everyone updated on munchkin and even helped out by putting his dresser together with my mom when mom finally had to come home. Although they did it backwards before getting it right they did it for me and I couldn't thank them enough.  My aunt made munchkin the cutest blanket I've ever seen.  I still have it to this day and I just take it down to look at it and know that even though hes to big for it at one time that blanket was the best gift ever.  Two of my uncles came to the hospital to see munchkin after his operation.  My little brother has always been and will always be my number two, he would come with me anywhere I love that little big guy.  To this day even with everything going on with court and all the stuff munchkin has been put through my family is so very excited to get to know him as a kid and not just remember him as a baby.

                          In 2006 I had my next kiddo Ladybug.  I then not only had my wonderful family but I had the family of my husband.  On delivery day my sister got up early and drove over an hour to be with me when I had her.  She stayed the whole time only going home to check on her kiddos.  I came home to a clean house and a room all set up with new tile and a water cooler for the baby.  Everyone was willing to help with holding the baby and helping out since I had a c-section and really couldn't do much.  Ladybug was a very loved baby and is now a very loved child!  Once again in 2008 all the families came together to help with the birth of Zittoman.  While he was born closer to home and all our family could be at the hospital, no one missed his birth.  Born on my moms birthday she still has yet to get any gift better than him.

                         In 2011 Frogy wanted to make his way into the world.  Once again born over an hour from home my sister, sister in law and kiddos were there to start the trek.  My mom came up later in the day and took Zittoman for the night, while Ladybug stayed with my in laws.  My sister stayed until 3 am when I finally gave up and we did the c-section.  She saw Frogy when they brought his nakedness into the room and got to be one of the first ones to hold him.  Then next day my in laws came out to bring Ladybug to meet her newest brother (poor girl has 3 brothers dating should be fun times).  They took my hubby to get some food and fresh air and were helpful to change the baby and hold him so I could rest.  When pizza guy had to go back to work we hadn't been discharged so my mom and Zittoman came to get us and bring us home.  I had a very traumatic delivery with Frogy so I needed assistance for about a week so when pizza guy was working I was at my moms and either my sister or my mom or even my friend K would help me.  If you ever want to find out your true friends just wait till you need help to get to the bathroom and help to sit or get up from going to the bathroom!

                      I might complain on how we cant catch a break, or how life has it in for me but truth is I have It golden.  My family is all I need and as long as I have them I'm in the right spot.  Now if I could convince them to all move closer to me that would be even better.  I know that life can knock us down and kick us a bit, but when you have Aunts, Uncles, Grandmas, Parents, Siblings, Cousins, and Friends like I do you just smile and get up and say "Life you hit like a girl!".


Always Smiling,
Outnumbered Mom!!

Babies, and Birthdays!!

Munchkin as a baby

Zittoman as a baby

                In just a few short days my little Ladybug will turn 7.  This lead me to thinking that I should cover my babies as babies!!  Munchkin wasn't exactly planned, but what child is?  He was born on a rainy day in November in California, he was a cute baby that was always smiling considering his condition and that he went through.  Lady bug was a stubborn child that didn't want to come into the world.  She was born on the 24th of January and that was her exact due date.  She was born via c-section in the morning.  She was born with a full head of curly hair and it was in a Mohawk.  She was a cuddly baby that was very independent.  Zittoman was a baby that couldn't wait to come into the world.  He was due to be taken out via c-section on the 26th of February but decided to come on the 20th instead.  He just happened to be the best birthday present my mom has ever gotten.  Hes was a tiny baby and well he cried so much when he was little.  He had colic, but that might explain why he whines so much now!  Frogy was my surprise birth, he was due to be born on the 11th of June and instead my water broke the last week of May only we didn't even know!  We found out at my doctors appointment that it had broken and I would be induced as I wanted a natural birth.  After 22 hours of labor he was born via c-section as well.  He has been the easiest baby, he never cries he never complains unless he wants his precious boob!

Ladybug at 2

                    Yesterday, the Pizza guy and I started planning Ladybugs party.  She wants a Michael Jackson birthday party.  We have food planned, and some decorations, we have a list of friends to invite.  We've even made a play list full of Michael Jackson's greatest hits!!  I have invitations made up ready to print out.  Now I need to figure out a cake or how to make a cake.  I cant believe my baby girl is growing up so fast.  Seems like yesterday I was helping her learn to walk and now shes ready to run off and play alone.  I get very sentimental about my babies birthdays.  My ladybug has overcome so much and I'm so proud of where she is in life and I cant wait for her to have her party.  I just wish time would slow down a bit so I could enjoy my love monkeys more before they grow up and leave me.  Now your probably wondering if we have any more children planned in our home, and our answer is not right now.  We do want more just want to wait to have time to watch all the kids grow and do the things they want to do.  I want to be the mom at every ceremony and program, the one at every game cheering them on.  I feel that if we have more right now we would be depriving the other monkeys of their mom and dad before they are ready.  Call me crazy but I love my kids and think that me and the Pizza guy make some very beautiful babies!!  

Frogy at 10 days old

               Right now we have a house full of crazy and I need to run with the monkeys and if in our future another baby is in our plan then well run with it to, Oh and you'll be the first to know (after our families of course stop grunting sissy and mom LOL)...Well that's my dose of crazy for tonight now i have to go fix a snack for Zittoman because he woke up hungry from sleeping.  Be on the look out for more blogging tomorrow night I'll be home and running crazy town I hope it wont be to bad!! Remember if your feeling outnumbered that numbers don't matter because in love there are no numbers.

Always Smiling,
Outnumbered Mom ;)